Huaihun Chiang In

Huchiin i khualzinna te uh a beichiang in i kipatna mun mah uah
i tungkiik diing ua, huaimun a khatveina di’n i theichiang ta diing uh
~ TS Eliot

Ka gim. Ka tawl. Ka ihmut suak.

Ka kimveel ah singkung a zaam ziaizuai a, huaite’ liim a loupa hing dipdip tung a tutkhawl a, agei a tuisiang luang dimdim dawn a ka sapum va diahkawt ka ut ngeimai. Himahleh ka khawlma in ka paina diing lampi sautak a omlai hi. Khawl tawldam mai thei ka hikei.

Ka kipatkhiatna a sawtta a, suun leh zaan chih omlou a pai ka hihna ah a ninhuai peetmah ta hi. Ka khedap but ataw keekgawp in a sung ah niinneng leh tui khawng honglut thei a, a gong in ka siak hon atdulh behlap lai hi. A khenchiang in vot in hontawp a, tu in ganhing neu tuamtuam in hon keihna ka baan leh tan bang a bol tektok zouhial uhi. Ka vanpuakna ka liang kham in ka pumpi in ka golh ngawingawi hi. Suun in ni hongsa a, khua honglum mahmah a, zankhua hongmial chiang in huihvot hongnung in honmeek teuteu zeel hi. Keimah in zankhua dai, gammang mial nuai ah khitui ka nuulhun a tam mahmah mai.

Huchiin ka khualzinna lampi ah haksatna tampi thuak in ka hong paitou zeel hi. Ka lampi a bing, ka ma a mial, meipi’n a hon tuamkhum. Himahleh huaibang hun ka tuahchiang in ka nu aw neem ka bilkha ah a hongging chiaichiai zeel a--a hon ittna, a hon muanna, a hon hasotna leh a hon thumpihna awging--huai in kei ah thathak a honguan hi. Lungtup tuang ka tun mateng ka khawlkei diing. Ka kiimveel a thil tuamtuam, nopna hontun thei hi’n haksatna hontun theidiing hitaleh, huaibang te a kaihpuuk in ka omkei diing. Aziak nei a pai ka hi. Tu a ka lampi zuih kumkhua in ka zuiden diing chih kuama’n a gen theikei. Nikhat tei Zo taangdung, keen selak a kipan phaizang nuamtak ah ka suakkhe ngei diing hi. Mialna apan vaakna ah. Khatak apan khumtak ah. Leh, gentheihna apan noplenna ah.

Hiaibang a ka lungsim suangtuahna toh kipawl a ka omlai in singtaang khota khat ka hongtung hi. Lamgei ah vok hon a na kibual teltul ua, a paamdeuh ah ui khat in a honnaa hi. Lampi lai ah naupang, dongse taktak a kithuam nirner bangzah hiam milawngpi kimawl a om te peel in khosung ka luut zomzeel a, hiaikhua a inn te ahihleh bii leh daappeek a lam ngen ahi ua, a luithei mahmah uhi. A mite’ meel avuai a, vaakna himhim a langpha kei. Nungak bangzah hiam khotaw lam a kipan tuitawi a hongpai tou ua, a meel uh ka en a, ka en thaknawn a, khatvei et a muhtheih mai louh, etlawmna tak khat a guuk in a mai ua a belh hi’n ka thei hi. Ahia, gimthuakna ziak in a mai uleh a vun te uh ahidiing dantak a khehkhiak in a omkei uhi.

Khawl tawldam uthuai chiin inn kongkhaak khat ka kiu a, huai ah nupi din saang vaklou khat in naungeek, maigeep bimbiam khat pomkawm in kong a hon hon hi. Innsung ka lut a, huai a ka thilmuh masak peen ahihleh ‘siangthouna’ chih kammal in a hinkhua uah poimohna a nei lawmlawm kei, chih ahi. A innsung uh a hawm a, van bangmah a omkei. Ka dang hul lota ahihman in tui a siang leh a sianglouh leng don selou in ka dawnsuk a, a tuung in tensim mahleng hiaibang a tuivot lim ka dawnlam ka thei naikei. Ka lei apan ka gawlgui tawn in ka gilsung tanpha hongvot suk ngiaingiai hial hi’n ka thei hi. Suansou ngailou, bangmah hellouh Zo lui tuisiang zaw ahina ve. Innteknu’n kamsiam tak in bangmah neilou himahle uh neekdiing in vaimimchim leh baalkee honlui a, kisuanlah huai sa mahleng, a neih khomkhom ua a kiphalna ka ngaihsaang ziak in ka neeksak hi.

Bangtan hiam ka khawlkhit in kal ka suankhe nawn a, khosung bouruak diikkawm in awl in ka hong kithawikhia hi. Singtaang dawn ahihman in khoveel polam toh kizopna himhim muhdiing hiaikhua ah a omkei. A mite singtaang gam selak a loubawl a neekzong ngen ahi ua, a zawng un a genthei mahmah uhi. A khosakdaan uh a niam a, a mawl ua, tua saang a khosak daan saangzawkna diing lampi himhim ngaihtuah baanlou uh hi’n ka thei hi. Huaimah bang in polam mite kuamah amau donsak diing a omkei hi. Ahia, a etton taakna mahmah khat uh hi a ka theih ahihleh tantawk a lungkim a, kipaaktak a a om theihna uh ahi. Amau kaal ah khat-le-khat ki-iit in, a khotaang uah kituaktak in a teengkhawn dialdial uhi.

Keimah zaakkhom a “Love of the common people” chih laa sa hialhial kawm in khosung ka pawtsan a, khonawl ah nupi-papi honkhat loukuan lampai ka tuak hi. Nupi te’n buuk khawng teepkawm in seeng in mehdiing a pua ua, papi te’n kawlzaal kuah in singtawn a puu ua, a meel uh vuaitak mai kawm a kipan gentheihna leh gimthuakna loungal honglang khia muhdiing dang ka neikei hi.

Mualdawn ah ni tumdi’a kisa in awl in a keniam hiaihiai a, huih hongnung a, ka khang a louzau a buhvui nisa in a salhpaak ziiziai te honmuut liing dialdial hi. Vasa zeem chi tuamtuam, mawi taktak te nuamsa tak in loulai khawng ah a leengtuah uhi. Ka mit in a muhphak tawpna chiang tan in mual-le-tang, hing dimdim in ka kiimvel ah a kikhung ua, a dawn a zaam meingou te nisa in a taanvaak singseng hi. A gamlei a etlawm a, a dai a, a khamuan huai mahmah hi. Kia genlouh, a sung ah hauhsakna gou kiphuum tamtak a om a, himahleh huaite pholsuahlouh leh zatlouh in a om nilouh hi. Gamlei hausa takmai siiksan a nei in a tung ah mipi te zawngtak in khosa uhi. Amau te lah ka mi, ka sa ahi ngal ua, ka veilou theikei. Lah, ka hihtheih bangmah a omkei.

Muikhua hongziing kuan panta a, ni in hon tumsan in tungleng vasa leh gamsa te’n a bukna lam uh hon zotsan mahle uh kei a di’n bukna diing mun a omkei. Koimun a thawlthei diing ka hiam chi’a ka ngaihtuah chiang in leeng ka taatzohna diing mun omlou hi’n ka thei hi. Kei kia ka hi. Ka khosuah theihna di’n ka sung a ka mihinna teng ka sawkkhiat a, pan ka laak a ngai hi - haattak leh haangtak in. Huchia zan khavaak nuai a Zo taangdung a lam ka pailai in ka lungsim ngaihtuahna in kilkawm teng ka dapsuak hi. Hiaibang a ka fankualna lam ah thawmhauna huihkhii bang ka va diikkha a, kei-le-kei ka kihehnepna di’n Lengtong Pauno’ leh Pu V. Paukhansiam’ laa te, gimsia a khua phawk nawnlou a ka ihmut suk matan ka sa hauhau hi. A lungleen huai ngoihngoih ngeimai.

Ziing a phalvaak kuan a vasa haam chiakchiak te’n ka ihmutna a kipan a honphawng uhi. Suahlam taangtung a kipan ni in etlawmtak in ka kiimveel honsal a, ka tawl damtuan mahmah hi’n ka thei hi. Kei leeng maban suan in ka hong painawn hi. Ziing daitui in a teuhsiang sa sing-le-lou te hinna ngen a dim in a hing siausiau uhi. Sawt kuamtak ka hongpai nung in munzaang lai a tuiluanna mun khat ka hongtung hi. Loupa nou hing dipdip in tua munzaang ah a kikhung a, ka gal lam ah ganhon bangzah hiam, lungmuang tak in a gamtang ua, a kimveel ah pak etlawm chi tuamtuam a paak siausiau uhi. Hiaibang a mun etlawm takmai’ zaal zoulou a pailiam san mai diing pammaih ka sa hi. Luitui vot ngeingei dawn in neekdia ka puak te ne in a gei a singkung nuai ah ka hong tawlnga ta hi.

Vaan a siang mahmah a, ka tungzawn ah mu hongleeng in hon veel diaidiai hi. A kaallak a vakhu leh leengthe honghaam zeelte loungaal thawmging dang zaakdiing omlou in a dai zikzek hi. Ka tung a vaan dum kiikiai, ka gal a mual hing dipdep leh singkung te, ka kiimveel a sing-le-lou leh paak zeem mawi taktak te, leh ka gei a tuisiang luang dimdim te enkawm in ka gamlei’ etlawmna te ka hon ngaihtuah khawm nilouh hi. Aw, mun etlawm. Mun dai. Galmuanna gam. Hiaimun a om lungsim a nuam in tawl a dam ngeimai. Himahleh ka khawlma in paina diing lam sautak ka neilai hi.

Ka hong paitou zeel a, nisa in hon salhna ka liim, keimah saang a a sauzawk hun chihdiing veel in khodang khat ka hongtung hi. Hiaikhua ahihleh ama a toh teh in a pii zotham a, tong-le-lam geentaaklouh, lei-leh-vaan diing phial a kikhia in a om uhi. Hiaikhua a lian a, inn a tam a, a thupi thei a, mihing leeng tam in thil thupi taktak muhdiing a om hi. A tom a geen in a changkaang mahmah, chihdiing ahi. Khosung ka hongluut zomzeel a, a thupina te ka muh behlap chiang in tua khota peen toh ka tehkak khanaak hi. Bangziak a gamkhat, kinaichik a om himahleh hiai khua tegel hichitel a kilamdang ahi diing ua aw? Bangziak a khat ah khua mial a khat ah khua vaak ahidiing?

Khonawl lam a inn omte ahihleh huchitel in a thupi lawmlawm kei uhi. Inn khat a kipan tape kiplay ging ka za a, ka ngaihhoih leh Deih Anglai ngai uh ahihdaan ka zachiang thei hi. Khosung ka lut zomzeel a, a thupi tou hiaihiai hi. Khonawl lam a te toh kibanglou in hiailam a te’n ahihleh Deih Anglai chihte bang thringsa in Flipsyde, Eminem, Korn chihte khawng a ngaizaw uhi. Hiai kilamdanna khat hileh, a dangleeng tampi a omlai hi. I gelhseeng kei diing. Aban zaw ngaihtuah thuuk dahni. Hiaibang te khawng khovel paidaan ahi, chi’a ngaihsiam mai a, thil thakthak pomtouh zeel a hoihpeen mah ana hidan hidiing hiveh aw.

Ahia, ka theihsiamna in a theihsiam louh thilkhat a om hi. Hiai in ka lung a su nuamkei. Bangziak a singtang dawn a mite’ kipahna leh lungnopna bangbang hiai phaizang khopi a mite’n neilou uh ahi diing? A meel uh ka en a, a hoihthei ua, a vaak ua, himahleh, i ethoih thak chiang in banghiam khat kimlouhna tak anei uhi. Bang peentak ahia chih ka thei tuankei.

Huchiin, kei ah theihtelna khat a hongdawn khia a… Hiai mite ahihleh natna huaise tak thuak a om ahi ua, hing lah hinglou, sih lah si vetlou in heenkol buhsak in a om ua, a kipeek ua, ‘mahleh kuamah a pheltu diing a omkei uh, amau-le-amau a kiphelkhiat ngaelkei uleh; khoveel hauhsakna deihtaakna ziak in a lungsim uh pisual in a om a, a lak uah ki-iitna a tawmta – masialna, hazatna, muhdahna leh deidanna gu a laanghaat mahmah a, khotaangna sang in khattangna in mun a uaplian zota; tuailai te khamtheih a kibual in, natna lauhuai taktak ziak in ani-ani in a puul zungzung ua, a gam uh azawng gawpta; a gam ua kipan suahtak sawm in mundang-gamdang ah a apai ua, ‘mahleh nuutsiat a om mite’ mabaan diing ngaihtuah ngam ahikei; taang-a-tuan a kipan piaksa-luahsa a gam siangthou uh luahkhum sawm in namdang in kilchih apan a nawk tuahtuah ua, a lauhuai daan theilou in amau te’n pankhawm a sawm tuankei uh; huchiin khoveel changkaanna tuipi a a kizap lai un apu-apa te uh chiindan te heemkhia in, a zuun a keembit diing khangthak a om nawnkei ua, amau a kitheih ma un manthatna liimguam zuan in saupi ana pailiamta uhi.

Tu in ka lampi a bingta. Khua a mial a, paina diing ka thei nawnkei. Ka nunglam ka enkiik a, ka pahtawi chimlouh khovel thilthawnpiak etlawmna te muhdiing a om nawnkei. Suunni a tumna a sawtta a, van hongging in keek hongkia a, maallam a kipan huihpi-huihsia hongnung vungvung hi. Bukna diing ka nei kei, ka thei zoukei. Ka nu ka sam a, a hon zakei. Kap kawm in sam mahleng a hondawng kei. “Nu ei, ka neulai in kap kawm a ka honsap chiang in neemtak in na hondawng zeel a, tu a chimoh-beidong, paina diing theilou a om ing a, k’on sapna zalou diing na hiam?” Ka khitui dan vuallouh in a hong takkhe zoihzoih hi.

Huchihlai in ka nu mangbang tak a a kahna awging ka bilkha ah a hongging viaiviai hi. A ta, kei hon poimoh ahita. Himahleh, suandiing bei in ke’n ka nu kiang bangchi’n ka zuanthei dia? Ka nnasep diing ka zou naikei. Ka nu’n kei a hon ngakzou lai diam? A ta’ tung a a kinepna liantak mai ka suk taangtunna di’n kei a hon ‘muanna’ ka letkip a ngai hi. Ka puuk keidiing. Ka khawlkei diing. Ka nu meel a kipahna meel ka muh kiiknawn matan kal ka suandiing.

Huchiin, nikhat ni chiang in ziingni hongsuak diing a, ka nu’ dahna khitui te kipahna khitui ka suaksak di’a, damsung hunte’ simkawm in nuamtak in ka nu’ angsung ah ka khawlta diing hi.

Ka iit tuunu Zolei’ ang ah. Huaihun chiang in.